alright. i really can't stop thinking of it. i'm missing the kids everyday!! T.T gotta go back on 11th Nov, 1 day before their holidays officially starts. i will definately miss Daichi as he brought back my memories when i'm in SK and there, i know a Japanese friend name Natsuki. i wonder how is he doing now. is he striving hard for kosen-rufu? i duno. i really wan to have a reunion with this old friend of mine!! T.T i'm sure Kenjin will be like me when he grow older in future..

i wan to sleep now. but i'm playing vampirisim. =.- gotta sleep after this. Goodnight!(:

during A3 chalet..

i jus realised that i've not been uploading photos for quite awhile alr. think i gotta search my pictures especially those which i took with Daichi and Kenjin. (:

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF ON SAT!! I'M OFFICIALLY 18 YEARS OLD ALR!! =D but i still cant watch M18 show cos it's my 华人bdae. =.- LOL!! anw, it's a good experience to be the emcee of the SK Anniversary cum Graduation Day's emcee with rui hsin. but at the same time, it's tough as i chant super duber less for it. hais. . .

Saturday
wow!! it's SK Anniversary cum Graduation Day!! reach ICA at around 10.30 and oh my.. i'm like late every single day. ZzZ anw, go through my script with rui hsin and i suggested to buy rule cards and we write everything on rule cards but qi sheng was like trying to psycho me not to buy and give me lots and lots of bad examples of buying rule cards. but in the end, we managed to break-through his bad examples wad. =.-

anw, back to main point. bought lunch back to ICA and eat and after lunch, quickly write the script into the cards. after writing, went down to Jasmine room to look for rui hsin. saw the kids again and they were like wanting to play with me again but i'm too busy to play with them.

saw that little girl again and i rmb-ed her name alr!! her name is Genevieve. (: she's cute not cos she said that i'm cute but i felt that she's really very pure and innocent. anw, saw Chloe and she ignored me all the way no matter how much i pat on her shoulder. =.- i wondered what on earth did i do anything to her to make her to ignore me like this.

O.o i guess she's angry with me for forgetting her name and break my promise for not gg down to ICA on friday. if not i really cant think of anything that i did to make her to be angry. perhaps something is wrong with my character, making 1x yrs old de angry and now 6 yrs old de angry. =.-

btw, pardon me if i appears to be sick huh? i jus find that the kids especially afew girls like Jia Min, Chloe, Genevieve, Zhi Hui is very good-looking when they smile and i'm NOT like trying to do something funny to them. =.- aww, dun be jealous huh? you are good-looking too when you smile do u know that? your smile is filled with vibrant and it's jus like the sun illuminating the sky and it had never failed to make me smile. (:(:(: btw, not only the girls are good-looking, the boys like Daichi, Kenjin looks handsome when they smile! (:

went to rehears with rui hsin and i was like quite confident in speaking unlike the 1st time i went on stage to practise. ZzZ finally, went up to ICA and waited time to pass. GD suddenly came up and sit down and i was like, "Aren't we suppose to welcome GD? den what shall we do since he is up here?"

so i quickly told stella, who jus happened to be at the front, to look for Mrs Tay. Mrs Tay talked to GD and we had a last minute change. =.- didn't expect this to happen but since it happened, we had no choice but to compromise it. this shows that members of the Soka Gakkai is 能屈能生. XD i wondered if i get the word correct anot. Lol.

personally, i felt that i didn't do a good job as i didn't do my part for not chanting lots and lots of daimoku for it but everyone told that it was a good job since this is the first time i do emcee. aww, i really duno but if i were to given a chance again, i'll definately chant lots and lots of daimoku.

well, guess i have to stop here. tml there's a wushu outing and i'm still struggling whether to go not as seeing the time now and have to reach harbourfront by 1oam. so Goodnight and sweet dreams people! Bye! (:

i'll miss Daichi, Kenjin, Genevive, Chloe, Zhi Hui and the other kids whose name i still duno but i played with them de!! T.T

alright. no more EL to worry alr. anw, EL post asides. let me talk abt SK anniversary cum graduation rehearsal which i attended ytd and today. the children is really adorable and terrorist too.. i wondered how terrorist i was when i'm in K1 and K2. =x

Wednesday
pon-ed school to go for SK anni as i'm the emcee on that day and i felt that, it may be my once in a life time thingy and if i were to miss the rehearsal, when i look back as i grow older, i will definately regretted it and therefore, pon-ed school.

supposely, i've to reach ICA at 8am but i dragged and dragged and so, i reached ICA at abt 10.15am. when i reached there, the K2 AM session is having their skit and it's really very funny in terms of the way that they present it and the way that they talked. it's really very funny.

went over to talk to Mrs Tay, Principal of SK and she went through the script with me and we made some amendment. Qi Sheng was the only alumni i know there and so i followed him everywhere he go lo and he's the IC of the K2 teachers helper and so he has the luxury of playing with the kids and they get along with him VERY WELL. i had a had time getting the kids attention on me. =.-

the AM session ended at around 11.30am and i went to do my mg at the chanting room and went to lunch with Qi Sheng at cafe beside the bookshop. anw, it's FOC cos i think HQ is providing lunch for the staffs and we, the alumni cum helper of SK has got the privilege to eat the lunch which the cafe prepared. (:

finished lunch and we went to Jasmine room to take care of the K2 PM children. again, followed QS everywhere he went and mix around with the kids. played around and went up to ICA to do my emcee run through. was so nervous that i mixed up the last part and i kept repeating myself for pronouncing the word properly. -.=

run throught everything twice and it's time for the children to home sweet home.. went to the cafe again to have our snacks and ate so much till i'm sooo full.. Lol. went back to Jasmine room to help the teacher to tie the medal which the graduates are getting on Saturday. i'm still thinking hard of where did my medal went. =.- ate dinner with wei han and QS and chiong down to bishan to meet them for FDC meeting.

Thursday
pon-ed school again. rui hsin came and we went through the script once as i was LATE again. =.- i better dun be late on saturday if not.. OMGohonzon!! the sound system for today is like not good as ytd cos due to some reasons. didnt do the role as MC and take care of the kids all the way.

go through the same thing as i did ytd but today, i did get along well with the AM session kids and i'm really worn by their fighting to play "chopstick" with me.. =.- went to lunch and it's better today as i finished the food!! Banzai!! =P went to Jasmine room and play with the PM session kids and when they saw me, they were like using a "gun" shoot me and i've to like "AHH, i'm dead". LOL!! playing with them is always fun.. (:

during one of the run through of the PM session, there is this little girl, whose name i forgotten, asked me this,

"what is your name?"

"hmm.. you know Tom & Jerry?"

the kids there said, "YES!! You are that TOM!!"

the little girl said that i'm Jerry but i heard as i cant be den i said this to her,

"why can't I be Jerry?" saying in a very sad tone..

"cos you are as cute as Jerry." and she smiled to me..

i was like stun there for 2-3 secs after she said this to me. this little girl really knows how to sweet talk huh? maybe i can learn this kind of stuff more and sweet talk to YWDs. =X HAHAHA jus joking only.. =p

anw, took out my juggling bean bags and juggle there and they were like, "WOW!! you are so cool!!" Lol. at least got the attention from the kids unlike ytd plus Dai Chi and Kenjin is like so close to me now unlike ytd, perhaps some of them are close to me alr. XD

so you can imagine the fun which i had this 2 days and i'm really looking forward to go for the SK 15th Anniversary cum Graduation Day this Saturday. so ppl, for those who i've jio-ed to go down, if you have something on and cldn't attend, it's ok. but for those who have nothing on, please come down and play with them as the kids are really very cute!! (:

SK school song
We are the children strong with hope
We are the children of the Sun
Come to Care. Come to Share.
Righteous children of the sun
Learn with joy. free to grow
Happy children of the sun

it's monday!! so which means, GCE "O" levels EL will be tml!! =.- i didnt really study much and here i am, online and blog. if i fail this time round, i really dun deserve to be ke lian de lo. anw, NPSD instutition meeting ytd! (: had lots of fun during the meeting and most importantly is, learned alot of new things. ^^

when i woke up in the morning, i was feeling a little unwell and i decided not to go for mg. but at around 8am, my sister msg-ed me and for that moment, knowing that she will take taxi down for mg, so i re-decided again to go down for mg even tho i'm not feeling very well. =.-

so cab down to ica and i'm able to chant at least 5mins of daimoku. XD anw, the encouragements given by GD was abt the victory of CFG last month. we had reached out to 64,190 people for all the CFG!! ^^ anw, ppl like me, who went for more den once makes up the figure which is so high but anw, even if subtracting those who went for duno how many millions of time, the figure will still be higher den 50,000! i'm so happy to hear that and almost cried? nah.. not that serious.. Lol.

went for breakfast with sk, catherine, darren and my sister. something happened which makes everybody unhappy but it's still ok. after breakfast, went to TSC and chant till 12.45pm and chiong down to Senja for my NPSD instutition meeting. reached there abt 2.30pm and fortunately, when i reached that time, it just started so that's the benefit of chanting before going down for a meeting. =p

as i mention earlier, had so much fun as we are having the Q&A competition for the founding of Soka Gakkai. didn't won cos they dun let me keep answering where yeeshi can always ans for her grp. NO JUSTICE!! =.- Louis and Marie shared abt their experiences over at Japan kenshu and it's the same thing which i heard from CIC training and NUSSD instutition meeting. anw, i catched some points which i didn't catch it during the CIC training and NUSSD instutition meeting and sometimes, it's good to lisen over and over again. XD anw, first time see NPSD had more den 15 ppl attending the instutition meeting. (:

after the meeting, the IICs, CICs had a disscussion on the SAHA diary and i'm been "force" to be inside. O.o what's SAHA stands for? it stands for, Standing Alone, Happiness for All and it's a home-visit campaign book for the year end kenshu and the theme for the kenshu is Senseition! it means to aknowledge Ikeda Sensei as our mentor and always have him deeply engraved inside our heart. as for the date and timing, it will be on the 7th December 2008, 10am at Senja. mg will be at there and i'll have to wake up super early for mg at Senja. =.-

went to have lunch?(it's abt 5pm when i went to eat) with the freshies after the meeting and home sweet home after that. anw, gotta study for EL now and later at SYC with ky and catherine. 30mins more for my EEPS practical. ZzZ

3 days more and it's EL!! OMGohonzon!! ZzZ

didnt really realised it till catherine tell me this jus now. how do i put it? alright. she told me that the way that i do things is really very relax and not serious in doing anything. so, when i'm talking abt some serious stuffs, people will take it as i'm jus talk for the sake of talking as i dont do whatever i say. now that i realised this problem, i must really do what do i say.

didnt go down for my own coaching class today as i went to ytd's official last coaching class. but all along, i was jus there playing my laptop and listening to what nicRao is teaching. seriously, my mind is really blank now and i duno what to ask nicRao for my EL on tuesday. all i can do is to chant for wisdom to have my brain working well that day.

went to nicRao place jus now with ky and catherine to study EL. as usual, i was late and i meet them up at nicRao's place afterwards. when i reached redhill mrt station, i alight and i went over to take bus to nicRao's place and i took bus 64 and alight 3 bus stop after the bus stop which i board the bus and i was LOST!! =.-

called ky and nicRao gave me some directions and finally, i found my way out of the maze.. ZzZ ran all the way to his place and was sweating all over my body. sat down and start to listen to what nicRao is teaching them and got some tips for my EL. (: went off to SYC for NUSSD instutition meeting at around 2pm.

had a fun and enjoyable day at NUSSD instutition meeting and i'll try to make NPSD instutition meeting as enjoyable as theirs. (:

alright. g2g bath now.. tml mg at ICA most probably i guess. support sk as he gotta be translator tml. Bye. (: NPSD instutition meeting tml! for no reason, my forehead is bleeding now.. =.- alright. before i go to sleep, saw this email from NP. NP gotta have green bazaar for celebrating 45 years of teaching and this is one of the component of Q&A:

"Will there be food and drinks?
Yes! Light snacks will be provided FOC! But for the drinks you are required to donate a certain sum to the student aid fund. All proceeds will be directly be in the student aid funds."

i'm thinking that, the drinks is = selling us. =.- anw, dun think i'm going down.. got tons of things to do.. Lol

alright. today was a unexpected day. was late for practical and didnt managed to finished the practical and the most funny thing is the capacitor was blow due to short circuit cos the tr's assistance go take out the wire when the power supply is on. =.- that was a dumbest thing which i had ever seen in my whole life.

so the moral of the story is, nv ever take out the wire which is connect to the bread board when the supply is on. =.-

running around the school today cos due to my stupid lateless of school today. =.- anw, had my 1st advance maths a.k.a AMATHS. Lol. so sleepy leh.. still got notes to print.. OMG!! i forgotten to print. ZzZ

got to go sleep now. if not i'll be dead tml.. =.- Goodnight! (:

shut up
jus shut up
shut up =X

"When you become confused, it's is always advisable to return to where you started and try to be as simple as possible. You will then be able to see the heart of the issue with unexpected clarity." - Josei Toda

let me recall what happened yesterday and just now..

alright. first day of school yesterday. first day of school is tutorial. nothing is more boring than 1st day of school where only tutorial class. =.- but luckily, there is EEPS practical, if not i'm gotta rot at the school canteen till i turn smelly. Lol. =.-

meet my EG2 and AC Circuit tutor. AC Circuit tutor looks nice but my EG2 tutor really cmi. =.- she gets distracted easily. when talking abt maths, she can talk abt her dogs as one of the student in the class trying to distract her by asking what kind of dogs and etc. ZzZ but i had fallen asleep so it's ok. Lol.

my classmates? well, only 2 of my ECP classmates is same class as me. so the rest of them is basically from EE from last semester. ahh.. my class is really very noisy man. i wonder they can really help me when i need help in my studies. well, cant judge a book by it's cover. so i must still go and ask them abt things which i duno! Lol.

today only got IS and i was late. fortunately, tr mark me as late cos today is 1st lesson if not.. =.- 1st lesson and there is assignment for us to do. somemore there is OP at the 5th week if i'm not wrong. the moment i heard there's OP, i stunned there for like 5 secs. =.- anw, know quite a number of people today. Lol. at least i know all my groupmates and fortunately, there is 2 girls in my grp and not all guys if not all heck care den grade will decrease. =.-

gotta chiong down to SYC now. Bye! (:

camp at home today again and play computer. i'm a goner.. if i continue to play after my school reopens, i really can go bang the wall alr. =.-

min wei came and look for me jus now. at first, i was wondering why would he come and find me and i thought of some "funny" things of why he came and look for me. >.< but who knows, he came to look for me was to ask me how i feel when i got back Sensei's reply and tell me that he will me transfering me to district 2.

i agreed to his plan as to transfer me to district 2 as i'll be learning things and grow over there as i dun have the luxury to have my parents to take care of me unlike in district 5. knowing more new members is good too. (:

talked to him awhile and went back home and camp at the tv. camp at the com till now and i spent one stupid hour playing a game which i'm dead at the 20plus mins. =.- should have leave in the first place and go to sleep. OMG!! it's 2.59am now now and i've got to wake up at 9.3oam later.

i really duno what to say.
i'm really very happy to see that.
you must keep on jiayou wor!!
even if u dun have confidence in yourself,
you must always have confidence in the Gohonzon. ^^
Nite(:

went down to NYP ytd to have coaching class. 8 coachers and 1 students. that's cool huh? but the rest of the 5 coachers had dialogue with each others so left liyu, guoliang and me to coach ivan.

met them at mac and i was lost when i'm on the way to there cos i took 25 to AMK instead of taking 72 to YCK MRT station. so i happily walked from AMK to NYP. had so much memories on the path which i walked ytd.

reached there and saw ky and the rest packing up and went over the other side as the light at the side which they sat was off. so we started the coaching class with ivan while ky and the ASD ppl had dialogue.

was very hungry and so, went to buy MacSpicy to eat and eat till the point that i'm too full and didnt finished the burger but at least the meat was finished. first time in my life that i couldn't finshed the burger. =.- after ky's dialogue, crap and crap with them till it's time to go home.

when waiting for bus that time, had so much shooting from them after i said, got bus home anot? dun really feel the pain, but some memories flash back of last yr. took 45 home with melanine and reached home and camp at the computer again. Lol.

i really missed the time that i spent together with you.

awww~ camp at home today and sleep. feeling so tired now. somemore i think my throat is sooo pain. i think i'm falling sick. hais.. well, here am i back to post a long long post.

Friday
went to jason's hse with yh to meet him to go down to chalet. waited for him for duno how long. but thinking of the time that he waited me, den suan le. so took bus 3 to downtown east. on our way, saw MJC got so many students inside den i heard from jason that it was open house and so, i've decided to go there to look for judy.

reached downtown, booked in and put down everything. went down to the NTUC near there. finished buying everything alr and see the time, it's going to 5pm. but the open house end at 5pm and so, i didn't go down to MJC. sian lo. so long nv see judy alr, wanna go find her to crap with her de but spent too much time at home waiting for my mother to come back. if i were to go down to jason's place at 1pm, i definately can go down and look for her de. =.-

so slack and slack at the chalet den alvin came. slack even more and it's time to go back to SK for alumni meeting. went down with alvin. slept on the bus as i'm damn sleepy. was woke up by alvin as walked to SK.

saw many familar faces but i didnt know that they are alumni at first. was quite shocked when i saw them but i duno if they were shocked to see me there anot. well, i'm been assigned as emcee for the SK graduation day on the 25th Oct. rui xin is my partner for the day. (: crap and crap and everybody it's time for Mrs Tay to lock the gate and go home. went to chanting room and do a quick gongyo tgt with renzhi, nicRao and alvin. took a detour to TM and they kept saying it till i'm super duber guilty. =.- accompany nicRao and renzhi to eat before going back to chalet.

took MRT instead of bus. duno what bus to take and so, took MRT. on the way to pasir ris, saw kenneth guan and his gf. i really cant believe it. a freak like him can have gf. Lol. joking. reached pasir ris and wanting to take 354 but the bus for the day has ended. saw kenneth guan again. had a chat with him and walked back to downtown with alvin while kenneth took 358 home.

eat and crap and time flies. i oso duno how i bring forth the courage to collect $20 from them. was so pai seh especially when collect from weixian but, i'm still collect it from them. the japanese members came with weixian and they bbq the potato till so nice. i think this is the first time which i praised a potato which i ate. so u all can imagine how nice the potato is. (:

after clearing up everything, haoyi, lucas and the YWDs went to the beach and ton which the rest of the YMDs went to sleep. it suppose to be a ton-ing night for the first night but we sleep. =.- anw, had a good night sleep as i'm the first to K.O. LOL!!

Saturday
woke up the earliest and went to shower as i'm "hot". went to sleep back again till they came back from the beach. alvin is the most ke3 lian2 one as he slept next to the door and when they came back, haoyi slam the door so hard that it woke everybody up. LOL!!

crap abit and those who came back from beach went to had breakfast while we, the slackers, cont to sleep till they come back till we went for breakfast. had mac for breakfast, and that was the only time which i break my golden rule of not eating mac for breakfast. Lol. after eating went back and cont sleeping.

at around 11plus, my phone suddenly ring. it was someone from HQ called me telling that Sensei had replied me. this is how it goes, "Thank you very much for your letter. Please accept my warmest regards." i'm really very happy that Sensei replied me but i was dots at that time cos that person sound it the way that Sensei had alot to tell me. =.-

cont sleeping and went for lunch in the afternoon. after lunch, went to swim with haoyi. when janice, swan lin and alvin came back, we went to Wild Wild Wet and play. ever since WWW had opened, this is the first time i entered WWW and somemore, it's FOC!! XD had so much fun and we went back at around 6plus.

the first thing i do when i went back is look for food and didnt went to bath till i had enough of my food. =P after shower, crap awhile and we played mafia. it was fun but everytime, it was the same, either i died or got sentence to death. =.- played awhile more and the YWDs went home after that. slacked awhile more and ky came. ate some noodle which bbq-ed by alvin and it was sooo nice? =.- watch meet the spartan and i was the first to K.O. again. LOL!!

Sunday
rush down to mg after i woke up. the topic which GD shared is interesting. i'll rmb it clearly. went to eat with the usual ppl and rush back to meet them for booking out but i failed. went home after that and have some sleep. camp at the computer after i woke up till very late.

it's 3.45am now and i gotta need some sleep. OMG! i still haven do my eg!! =.- Goodnight. (:

alright. alright. i couldn't tahan the tempting of not blogging for 2days? hmm... here am i back from my CHALET!! XD

i'm thinking of my game now and couldn't think of anything to post. VAMPIRISM~ Lol. sounds creepy right? but it's fun. think i gotta get back to find at least the last game for my day as i've been camping at the com since i came back. =X wanting to go to SYC jus now but.. HAHAHAHAHA =.-

so much to say, so much to share. but.. i duno what can i say..

waaaa!! jus slept 5 hours jus now only. now i realised something, i cant be like someone ah.. sleep comes before anything. LOL!! duno how ppl sleep more den 8hours per day. i'm dead beat now. imagine i've to stay up tml night, i'll be dead. so in order to stay awake for the whole night, i'm gotta swim whole night!! LOL!! =.-

didn't chant before making this decision.
told my district ldr to help me register for entrance exams.
looking at the number of pages of the previous study material, 一身成佛抄 has,
i gotta be dead if i'm gotta study.
but, no matter what,
i'm gotta study for it.
i'm aiming for a distinction for it! XD

sleepy~ =.-

*yawn*~

jus came back from koon's place after one night of ton-ning at his place. i'm so beat.. but i duno what will happened after i chant after i post this. will i be able to sleep? or i will be awake till tonight? =.- i dun wanna have the dun have enough sleep = blah blah blah post again. ZzZ
that's a lame post as far as i concern, but i jus can't help doing such lame things. XD

A3 chalet tml.
gotta be awake for duno how many days again. =.-
plus Sunday, morning gongyo will resume
but i have to book out at 10.30am!!
what should i do?
go for mg den rush back to pasir ris to book out?
or i jus stay at the chalet and do my mg there?
i missed the Gohonzon at ICA for very long long time le.
so what shld i do?
obviously is chant for the wisdom
to decide. =.-