has anyone wondered that is the person who is been love fortunate or the one who is loving that person fortunate? actually there is no answer for this kind of question. some will say that the person who is been love is fortunate and some will say the one who is loving that person who is fortunate. well, i oso dunno which is much more fortunate. =/

i'll be on holiday starting on thursday onwards. the 1st 3 days of the week are having test and i'll have to study very hard for it especially my ELTECH. Engineering Mechanics are still ok, but i'll have to revised it to make it more perfect. EG1 need to practice the most cos still not too sure about log. trigo oso going to die if i dun practice it. =/

wushu "camp" the week after next. the instruction passed down was that, the "camp" was for us to prepare for the up-coming competition. i still haven finished learning my bian da quan so i guess, i'll have to put in extra effort in it.

YMD overnight kenshu later. got to pack my things alr. there is still lots of things that i wanna overcome but i really have no wisdom on how to do it. all i have to do is CHANT (:

"No matter what happens, how hard the time is, I'll keep praying that the Lotus Sutra and the ten demon daughters will keep protecting all of you. Praying as earnestly as though producing fire from damp woods or obtaining water from parched grounds." (WND p444)

1 day more to go (:

school ended 10am today. no lab today cos today's lab is made up lesson. went to mac with them and didnt eat. after that went to meet sk for lunch and ate alot. went home after that. on my way home, sat beside these 2 girls and overheard some part of their conversation.

i think that in the past, YWD wouldn't have such a problem and it is the YMD shld be having this kind of problem. now, after overheard of these 2 girls, i knew that i'm wrong and i know what i shld do. tho it's not a good thing that i tuo1 ting2 wad they are talking abt, but i've learn lots of things through this tuo1 ting2. =P

everything i'll based on my faith and overcome it. it is no doubt that the gohonzon will arrange the time for everything to settle. all i've to do is to wait for the chance to come and grasp it and settle it. that the way we shld do things. (:

NPSD instutition mtg was great. was late cos i dun wanna leave home when i'm ready to go. jaymie's testimonial is v good. same situation as me and it really encouraged me till the max. i guess everything will have to base on faith and it will never go wrong(:

NDP training was fun and after training, intend to go home but in the end went to TPY cos of laurel. wanted to disturb her and so in the end went to TPY. no wisdom -.= went to lor 5 and eat and missed my last bus home. accompany her home and on the way, i crapped and played with her. took taxi home and it cost me $7.80. so laurel, if u were to read this post, u know wad u shld do to repay ur gradtitude to me le hor. LOL!!

still got CATS project to complete and the 400 essay/poem/song lyrics to complete. no more playing and START WORKING BOY!! -.=

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went back to deyi ytd. lots of memories coming back when i step into the school. time passes like a wind and 2003, the year when i stepped into deyi to study for the first time is just like ytd. memories of happy and sad, all coming back. remembering last year when waiting for ep cca to end and meet van to go to chingay, it was like HAHAHA and oso waiting her to go for NDP trg.

memories of getting homework from hw girl's classmates and passed the homework to her. walking down the same road early in the morning when going to school and running back to school everyday fearing of been late came back. wadever it is, each and every memories came back.

saw Mr Lim and Chen laoshi. went back to canteen and eat and saw wee kiat. well, uncle tiong's chop is still ever delicious and it's good to eat the chop again. school didnt changed alot but just that the bookshop changed the positioning. i guess it's time to move on and create more memories in NP for the next few years. (:

*COUGH* *COUGH* i guess i've sore throat and it got infected cos when i swallow saliva, i'll feel v pain. well, i'm not gotta let this defeat me.. Roar like a lion king and not purr like a cat.. well, there is one gosho passage that i love most:

"It is rare to be born a human being. The number of those endowed with human life is as small amount of earth can place on a fingernail. Life as a human being is hard to sustain - as hard as it is for the dew to remain on the grass. But it is better to live a single day with honour than to live to 120 and die in disgrace." (WND p851)

well, anything if u wanna know. u can check May issue CL as i extracted from there. (:

I WANT YOU!! =D

i really hate been sick. cant go here, cant go there. i'm like a prisoner in my hse only. well, dun worry abt me.. i will definately overcome this and recover from it. (: GOSH!! MY MATHS TUTORIAL HW HAVEN FINISHED!! ARGH!! =.-

monica's wedding-
thanks people!! it was really a great success for the skit. the audience was there laughing non-stop from the beginning till the end. many senior ldrs including 2 Vice-GD Mr Yaps were there. sikang really sarcrific alot for this skit, and the female lead, liyu too. Thanks people!! monica was really very happy ytd and looks beautiful too. (not saying that she's not beautiful everytime i see her) well, times for more challenges for this couple and i'm sure they will enjoy the fruit of success in the end like wad Mr Michael Yap says. (:

study meeting-
OMG!! i was been aimed for next mth study mtg to be seated infront.. everytime went to this kind of mtg with sk sure something will happen de. well, Nvm. i'm ready to challenge it. come on! LOL!! (:

study meeting for TPY South was good. they talked abt 10 worlds this time round. watched a video on the 10 worlds and the YWD and MD lecturing on this 10 worlds are really v good!! (i felt that both of us were at the world of hell everytime we start to quarrel. no more nonsense and i wan both of us to maintain at world of buddha when we are talking.)

went to sk hse and stupid us, went to play game making his sister so angry. guess, i cant go to his hse in future alr since i gave such bad impression. =/

gajokai kenshu-
supposely i want to go to the kenshu de.. but i'm having fever and therefore, didnt managed to go. i really wan to listen to wad they are sharing in the kenshu, but i CANT go!! ZzZ stayed at home and play com instead of resting. guess i'll have to sleep early tonight least tml i cant go school. feeling much better now (:

this is the toughest decision that i've ever made. if i were to go wrong one step, the outcome will be very ugly. i need to thanks those who kept giving me advice when i turned to you all. well, i've jus realised that it is really no point holding onto it when i didnt even realised it till someone told me that. you need to breathe, so do i. i'm really very tired of keep talking abt it over and over again. both of us needs time and i guess gohonzon will arrange the best timing for us to solve this problem.

tues-
went for wushu and it was quite fun except for the stretching part. jiao4 lian4 came over to stretch my leg and i'm in great pain. *ROAR* cont learning the very basic and cant rmb which step is after which. i think i'll have to learn over again on friday again. argh!!

wed-
was late for school. lucky lecturer nv mark abs. if not -.-ll installed a programme into my laptop and start to program the robot. Lol. quite fun and nelson is damn funny.. nv build the changes and den go start the thing. got scolded by tr and was v malu.. well, who knows abt it?

ELTECH tutorial is fine.. got to say, it's my time to slack and i shall not slack anymore. chatting on msn and at the same time, doing my tutorial work. gotta finished 1.7 this week and get back my book which has the 1.5 in there from engpeng if not i gotta get 0marks for that particular work.

had a mechanic quiz and i think i gotta fail it due to my careless mistake. didnt know it till the very last minute and last minute revised is no used. but at least can work out and that's not bad alr. LOL!!

thurs-
was late for S&W class and start to swim the moment i took off everything that i wear excluding the swimming trunk. cont practising breast stroke a.k.a frog style. learnt back stroke and more or less, i can grabbed the skills of the hands movements. 3 cheers for jerry. (:

CATS class was quite unusually. we've spilt into grps of 5 and must come out with something that can discover thinking skills. without wisdom, how am i supposed to think? but i managed to think some of it. we are gotta make a game where the ppl can challenge and discover their own thinking skills.

at the end of the whole proj, we are suppose to write our own indivisual journal saying that how creative we are. it must be at least 400 words. tr suggest us to write a poem or a song. siao ah, we will go listen to or read 400 words song/poem?? -.= -.= -.= guess i'm gotta write a song. =D

here is a scenario for you all to imagine. imagine your love one suddenly become unconcious one day. you are by his/her side day and night chanting for him (if you are gakkai member). den one day, he/her suddenly woke up, what will you do? i give you 3 choices to choose.
1) do nothing and say, "Thank godness! You have WOKE UP!!"
2) grab his/her hand and say, "Thank godness! You have WOKE UP!!"
3) hug him/her till he/she cant breathe and say, "Thank godness! You have WOKE UP!!"
which one will you choose?? tagged at my tagboard to give me your answer!! THANKS!! (:

hug or no hug, option still opened for her to choose. she felt that it's very weird and i thought that it's so weird when i first thought of it. but what will the other partner do when their love ones jus woke up from coma?? Nvm. most probably will not hug her cos i need to consider alot of factors. if she agrees and everyone agrees too, i'll jus go along. see how 1st ba..

mon-
dun feel like going to sch therefore went to the polyclinic to see doctor. reached there at 10.41am and waited till 12.30pm. was very pissed off with the doctor as i told him that i've headache, he asked me afew questions den after that, he told me, "you are fit to go to school and i'll give u a excuse mc to proof that u came to see a doctor." i was like HUH?! i spent money here to buy mc and u tell me that i can go back to school!! -.= -.= -.= so no choice went back to school lor.

reached home at abt 2pm and went out at 2.17pm. take bus den train and reached clemeti at 3plus. now i realise that the different between peak and non peak hour is soooo big!! =.- took 184 and came to this bus stop where 4 ppl came up. 2 guys and 2 girls. 1 of the guy went infront and sit and the other malay guy go tgt with the girls to stand at the extension part cos the 184 is the long one. den suddenly i saw one of the girl who looks like a chinese, unbutton her shirt to around breast part den the malay guy start to disturb her and keep looking at her breast. how come i know it's becos when she came up to the bus that time, her shirt is tight and suddenly she faced me side-view i saw her shirt is very loose, so i concluded that she unbutton her shirt. LOL!! well, that guy is so tiko keep looking at her breast. =.-

reached school at abt 4pm and do some work and went home. melanie came to my hse at 7.3opm and ky reached at abt 7.5opm. there was only 3 of us and we cont the dmk lor.. =.- =.- =.- after chanting, came to my rm and discussed how to encourage the students to come but we crap instead of discussing and it's time to go home. ZzZ

tues-
took 53 cos went out of the hse late. board the bus and saw this NY girl so chio.. regretted that didnt study hard last yr if not can know her.. LOL!! =X but den NP is not bad oso la. got more chio bu den in JC but i feel that JC is more natural cos they nv make up. that is the kind girl i like ba.. i duno.

sch was normal and my classmate keep making the stupid sound which is simply making fun of my name. wadever it is, i'm neither angry nor irritated by them. went to eat and came home. ARGH!! I WAN SLEEP!! wushu afterwards and no more nonsense like last week. think i go catch some sleep first before i go wushu. (:

O.o

fri-
reached school at abt 8.55am and wasn't late. Lol. no lessons for next fri morning so which means my lessons starts at 1pm. yay! (: after sch went to syc for FD-Coaching cum help out as dun have wushu. i was jus playing my com there and help to take order.

didnt went to huimin's chalet with sk. instead went to shuyi's sister wake with ghee han and ky. shuyi is still very sad that her sister had passed away. CHEER UP!! went home with my sister and ky at 1am

sat-
woke up very early and couldnt sleep back. CRAP. went to harbourfront with sister and ky to meet zijing there. had breakfast at subway and actually this is the 1st time i'm eating at subway. Lol. went down to syc to discuss the skit for monica's wedding.

reached syc and chanted for 2omins using meeting room. after chanting, cont using MR for our rehearsal cos if we use lib, it will be very noisy for ppl who is reading there. judy didnt come cos overslept and so, liyu back-up her jus for the day.

starting i duno wad to do and so, i'm like a block but soon, thx to my sis, zijing and ky, i'm able to so call okok. really very stupid as wad ky did and he really did a very good job acting the fairy. sounds weird when a fariy is a guy but he's the one who meets the expectation of my sis and zijing. LOL!!

went down to yew tee with zijing after practising to meet judy to let her to read the script. she waited us for like 1omins i guess. i thought we are earlier den her but i was wrong. ZzZ go through the whole thing with her and went for NDP.

reached camp 2 and had measurement of costume. my chest was actually 36.5cm!! wad a broad chest i've. went back for training and learn new formation.. after trg went to mac with them to eat. melvin suddenly called me in a very angry tone. went out of mac and he came to confront me. was very angry and shouted back and after that cried. stupid huh?? anw, it's my fault who call him names in the 1st place and now he cant tahan anymore and release, it's very normal. this is call cause and effect. yh and gene went home earlier fearing of miss last bus. home sweet home after that.

sun-
went to morning gongyo as usual. this week, GD shared his testimonial to commerate Mother's Day. quite an interesting encounter with buddhism.

"one day, my mom came home with a piece of paper when i'm resting. my mom said it was his uncle who is a catholic had jus convert to buddhism who passed it her the paper and asked me to chant the word written on the paper. I took the paper back to my room and figure how to pronounce the word. I cldnt figure out and I switch off the light and start to chant. I duno why I reacted this way and mayb I'm desperate for help at that point of time." - GD ONG

"went to my uncle house and saw the true object of devotion which is the Gohonzon for the 1st time. my uncle didnt have an altar that time and so, Gohonzon was hanging in a wooden box. saw standard item which is place on the butsudan and it seems like the set up for taoist funeral?? saw the incense box for the 1st time and i thought it was a mini coffin at that time." - GD ONG

interesting encounter with buddhism. his testi is indeed very encouraging and i actually talked to GD after morning gongyo.

jerry: GD!!
GD: yes?
jerry: thx alot for sharing your testimonial just now. it is very encouraging and i'll definately engrave it in my heart and i'll definately work hard for Singapore kosen-rufu.
GD: Thank You very much. *shake hands*

i had forgotten to asked him to take care of his health. GOSH!! too nervous when talking to him alr.. well, he is my idol wad.. LOL!!

i felt so guilty and stupid now. wadever i've done is wrong and i shldnt have wrote it in the first place. didnt really think before doing anything. OMG!! WHAT HAVE I DONE!?

tues-
jefferson came back to ngee ann and have a dialogue with me. have so much fun talking to him and learn alot of things from him. i actually just found out that he's from NCC during secondary school period. he looked so hip and i thought is some hippy CCA. so weird..

wed-
my friend's impression towards me was like 180 degree changed cos of the LcL (learner centred learning) for ELTECH. had a quiz ytd and we are suppose to win the other team. because they dun listen to me, we lost 40 points but after losing the 4o points, they start to listen to me, so the moral of the story is, know your work well.. (:

went to TBSC and chant after school. saw AJC's student again and this time round i saw not many but one person. guess he's on his way home.. why do ppl choose so far to go to school when they stayed far? well, same for me oso.. LOL!!

went home after that and i slept on the train and i OVERSLEPT and went to SENGKANG mrt!! =.- waste my time.. saw alan and a girl.. guess is his gf ba.. went to kovan and 113 came.. the result of doing eg at TBSC.. LOL!!

thurs-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIKANG!! =D

was late for S&W but i'm not the latest.. so i'm saved for leading the warm-up. after warm-up, took the board and do some kicking for 6 rounds. the 1st round i kick to fast and 2nd round i was tired and i said, "ji dan" and i got 20 push-ups for scolding vulgarities.. -.-ll i'm not!! went for CATS and it was as bo liao as ever.. went home after that.

went to amk hub to look for engpeng and yuzhong to buy sk's bdae present but a failed attempt. went to yishun to meet ky and went to yew tee for NDP training. jus now when doing dry run, i was like holding the flag wrong side and nobody realised it till music run. LOL!! there's a part in the music that i love it so much. dunno why oso.. LOL!!

no wushu later due to alumni meeting and i wont be going.. saturday need to go for a funeral den chiong down to SYC for monica's wedding. gotta be so busy and tired and have to memorise the script. but NVM.. my partner will be in the same situation as me.. so no worries.. (:

"if you like a girl/guy, know her/him better first before you tell her/him that you like her/him." yeah.. i know that and i need to know you better before hmm.. O.o i have been asking myself why i liked u so much and i finally had a answer, it's beause that you are different from other girls and this is what makes u so special(:

well, this few days really hooked on 简单爱 and this particular lyrics 我想就这样牵着你的手不放开. Lol.. dunno got influence by who and keep listening to this song.. in the past, when hw girl took my ipod and keep repeating this song, i was like er... i think got influence by her man.. hais.. gotta hold her hand and nv wanting to let go alr liao la. LOL!!

today nv go wushu cos when i came home that time, went to my blog and see my past post den see till so happy that i have no mood to go for wushu.. this time round will be last time i'm gotta be like this.. no more this kind of nonsense from me anymore..

my last post for the day. after that gotta sleep alr if not tml will die man.. LOL!!

today school is not bad, lecture is slightly better and same for my classmates.. gotta overcome this no matter what as well, who dun want to have friends to be with them? -.-ll

o well, during break time went to canteen 4 and eat. when we wanna go back to block 51, there was this YWD psycho-ing us to get the tickets for this coming friday de dunno wad dance night only for Year 1 and she wants us to get the tickets cos those who are not free can give her the ticket and she's like Year 2 or 3 this year.. -.-ll dont u know that this is only for freshies and you wanna go.. ZzZ well, since she asked alr den get it and gave it to her.. -.= i'm so gentleman even tho i complain.. =P

2 hours breaks as lecturer didnt come cos went for operation. played dota and won. at last. LOL!! went for COMPRO lessons and end of the day. met up with yh and alvin at NP and had our dinner before going down for NDP dmk at TBSC..

NDP dmk-
nothing much but jus pointing out mistakes only. had a laughing when the choerographer tell us funny things abt somebody. well, there was this YWD doing the correct thing and because of the rest is not doing the correct thing, she was mistaken as the wrong person as she's too outstanding. LOL!!

uncle mike said his testimonial and quite funny and encouraging also(: went home after that and so crap lor.. called hw girl and talked to her.. maybe she's too stress or wad and we almost quarrel again.. well, she definately dun have enough dmk if not outcome wont be like this. dun say her, mine oso not enough if not wont even have to almost quarrel.. gotta chiong dmk alr..

"There are many elements involved in a prayer being answered but the important thing is to keep praying until it is answered. By continuing to pray, you can reflect on yourself with unflinching honest and being to move your life in a positive direction on the path of earnest, steady effort. Even if your prayer donesn't produce concrete results immediately, your continual prayer will at some stage manifest itself in a form great than you have hoped." - Daisaku Ikeda

今天你要嫁给我 by: 陶喆 蔡依林
hey hey er er
er er

春暖的花开带走冬天的感伤
微风吹来浪漫的气息
每一首情歌忽然充满意义
我就在此刻突然见到你(take the way)
春暖的花香带走冬天的气寒
微风吹来意外的爱情(it's love)
鸟儿都高的拉近我们距离
我就在此刻突然爱上你
听我说手牵手跟我一起走
创造幸福的生活
昨天已来不及明天就会可惜
今天嫁给我好吗
here we go er er
jolin in the house
dt in the house
oh~come on
our love in the house
sweet sweet love
夏日的热情打动春天的懒散
阳光照耀美满的家庭(yeah yeah)
每一首情歌都会勾起回忆
想当年我是怎么认识你(but you know)
冬天的忧伤结束秋天的孤单
微风吹来苦乐的思念(i'm missing you yeah)
鸟儿都高都唱着不要别离
此刻我多么想要拥抱你
听我说手牵手跟我一起走
过着安定的生活
昨天已来不及明天就会可惜
今天你要嫁给我
听我说手牵手我们一起走
把你一生交给我
昨天不要回头明天要到白首
今天你要嫁给我
hey hey er er
叮当听着礼堂的钟声
我们在上帝和亲友面前见证
这对男女现在就要结为夫妻
不愿忘了这一切是多么的神圣
你愿望生死苦乐永远和她在一起
爱惜她尊重她安慰她保护着她
两人同心建立起美满的家庭
你愿意这样做吗 yes i do
听我说手牵手一路到尽头
把你一生交给我
昨天已是过去明天更多回忆
今天你要嫁给我
今天你要嫁给我
今天你要嫁给我
今天你要嫁给我
今天你要嫁给我
oh oh oh~

well, maybe singing this song during monica's wedding with xiao3 wang2 zi3 and i gotta inform ky first.

P.S. for ppl dunno how to read this song, blue = david tao, red = jolin tsai and green = both of them(:

yeah!! gotta going out later.. SAD~ -.-ll

"ndp or not, option still open. definitely not gg trg for time being. maybe wait till everything stabilise. i really want to join ndp but the workload dosent allow. 'take it as a challenge'- its easy said than to be done. i've achieved sweet victory from last yr ndp but afraid to try another yr. encouragement is not wat i lack, assurance is wat i need." - kop-ped from someone's blog. it's seems to me that the situation is not stabilise and she's in NDP. thx for contributing despite your busy agenda(:

went for morning just now and GD's encouragements is always the best. LOL!! my idol leh.. siao siao. after that went to have breakfast with ky and my sister. discussed abt monica's wedding de culture item. gotta have a funny skit and i wan to be the main actor which is the husband. so who will be the wife??? find little prince to be lor(she agreed. yay!! got wife liao!! =D) tho height difference is like LOL!! but nvm la. who cares anyway. jus a skit only.

think have to meet up with them soon. =.=

简单爱 : 周杰伦

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家一起
看着日落一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧唱着歌一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我

想简!简!单!单!爱...
想简!简!单!单!爱...

kop-ed from engpeng's blog. jus abt to go find the lyrics den i rmb she has it. thx thx! hooked onto this song lately (: jian jian dan dan ai~

no ndp training today means it's time for CELEBRATION!! =D

jus now went to see my past entry and found out that i'm so LOL!! see see see den got one stupid survey question really very crapped. went to hw girl's blog to see too as koped from her blog and both of us are really very crap. Lol. not the questions that they asked are crap but it's our answer that make the whole thing crap. LOL!!

well, i shldn't have call her hw girl anymore cos it's like been a year since i've helped her to take her hw and passed it to her when she's sicked. what shld i call her now? i oso dunno. but hw girl sounds so weird. Lol.

sch was fine ytd and i really feel very lonely in school. why cant they just say everything infront of me instead of backstabbing me? Nvm. i accept this fact because this is my karma. realised that i've asking tr stupid question during lectures and also during secondary schools days. really dun know how they tolerate me for 5yrs. LOL!! well, overcome this and i will see much better days in poly. (:

wushu was fine and learn tao lu. learn the greeting part and abit more. so much crap and i was like doing chinese dance. LOL!! this is wad my senior who taught me say de. i need to go on a diet alr. cant even stretch when i've a big tummy.. =.-

P.S. something is wrong with my hp. received selective msg-es i guess. so if there's anything impt, call me. ZzZ

things are getting so complicated now and i really dunno how to overcome it.

wushu on tue was fine but my muscles especially my leg is aching like nobody's business due to the stretching and i even have to use my hand as support when i want to lift them up. regretted joining NCC during secondary school period and not M&D cos i'll have no problem doing the stretching for the warm-up. T.T

NDP training were fine and derrick is gotta quit. reason is been no interested. didnt really chant and now this kind of thing happened. i guess, i have to work harder the next time and mayb asked him to join MILKRUN. but first of all, i've to chant hard to asked him alr. yh and gene is continuing and i guess, they are my main focus for now in shakubuku-ing them. gambatte jerry-san!! (:

my classmates are really very childish. they created a "clan" call AFFA and it stands for Anti ... ... Assiociation. i really dunno the 2 F stands for wad but it has got to do with me. this is not based on my feeling but my own eyes and ears. ytd when i told long sheng that he looks like guang ming korkor (cousin's husband) and asked him whether he has a older brother. he said no and having the thought of been related to me is so horrible (this i can take it cos my friends oso will say this) and i'll be kick out of the "clan". when i asked wad does AFFA stands for, they dun1 to say so i concluded that the "clan" has got something to do with me. *end of story*

what is really wrong with me? i really cant figure out and whatever it is, chant hard to change my negative karma to positive karma and to change the situation to my advantage. and having such determination must really thanks May for enlighten me. but i've alr thinking of that before she told me alr. well, thanks anw! (:

saturday no training cos May 3. i have to start my shakubuku campaign as to reach 1m household is really impossible to many ppl but the power of dmk is really unimaginable so, here i come!!

no matter what happens, I'll continue to persevere as I know that you are the one alr.