hehe.. come to blog when i'm office.. carol not here that why can rebel le ma.. =P

have been thinking of this question this few days. did i do the wrong thing by forcing the truth out? i not concern abt whether after forcing the truth out, i dun have her to like me but instead, i'm more concerned abt whether we still can be friends anot. truth is, i, myself dunno too.

everytime i see her, i will have that very guilty feeling and think, "why did i force you to say it and after that i say i dun like you?" i have no idea of how much she have been struggling and if i were to turn the time back, i will definately keep quiet and say nothing and this would at least save our friendship.. hais..

people is having fun for their chinese new year, while i've to be sad for my chinese new year. the worst thing is, i've to act as if i'm normal infront of ppl as this is wad the gohonzon had pathed for me.

Results which i got
L1R4 : 24
L1R5 : 31
English Language : D7
Combine Humanities (Social Studies, History) : D7
E-Maths : C5
Combine Science (Physic, Biology) : B3
Principle of Accounts : B3
Mother Tonuge : C6

i really dun understand it why i get this point in the 1st place, but i finally realise it. although i kept telling ppl that this is truely wad gohonzon have path this road for me to walk but deep down in my heart, i'm really very painful. everyone has the choice of picking themselves up again after been defeated by their set-backs. me? really dunno wad to do after getting back my results. dun even dare to pray for those very extraordinary prayers. but after hearing some ICs and reading sk testimonial again, i believe that i'll find my mission in life though going to Poly.

FD muscial was fun. went for the show at Saturday night and judy was playing the role of little prince. she is very good in acting and oso good in singing? but the tone of that she sang was too low. all the 3 show i can say today's the best! as i finally rmb how to dance alr!!(:

dun wish to post anymore. Sayonara~ ^^

tml start work. thursday take results. saturday FD musical graduates item. i gonna become crazy soon. but no fear. i still have you to accompany me the journey through.(:
Nam-myoho-renge-kyo

歌手: 张栋梁
曲名：当你孤单你会想起谁张栋梁
你的心情总在飞,
什么事都要去追,
想抓住一点安慰,
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,
一碰就会碎,
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪,
你最害怕每天的天黑，
但是天总会黑,
人总要离别,谁也不能永远陪谁,
而孤单的滋味,
谁都要面对,
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫.
当你孤单你会想起谁,
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲,
只有我能体会,
让我再陪你走一回

might be grad item song.. Sayonara~ ^^

yay!! i'm sicked.. -.-ll !!~LOL~!!

Tuesday, 8 Jan
went to TBSC for chingay daimokukai as we are performing as spirit booster and i dun wish to carry on whether it's a success or not..

Wednesday, 9 Jan
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ENG PENG!(: 17 years old le.. hehe.. =P
chingay training.. still got wad thing? my life have been becoming standard already.. not chingay den go kaikan and chant if not den have FD or something on.. this kind of lifestyle who will able to take it? only me lor. HAHAHA chingay training not bad.. trainers not there for warm-up and so sikang and mei lun take over.. not bad huh? 2 choreographers take us and can use main ground leh, such good deal who dun1? =P jeff came very late and training as per normal just that 2 choreographers taking care of us.(: how fortunate i can be..

Thursday, 10 Jan
went to find job with eric.. doesn't have the intention to find a part-time job as i find the time is very irregular but if can find it den good, if not den nvm lor. at first very shy to go and ask whether they is vancancy anot cos first time den eric go ask.. suddenly eric say he have a relative working at starbuck coffee and know that starbuck is looking for worker so, called his relative and cfm whether can anot. called and cfm the date of interviewing den went to take my blue slip from my agent.

went down to basement at ngee ann city after taking the slip and saw huihui there. never change at all, still as happy as ever and passed her the invitation flyer for FD Muscial - The Little Prince and she took it. went to ICA after that helping min wei to carry stuffs to TBSC and after to viven's hse for the RHQ 5 daimokukai every thursday. went to eat at CARTEL after that and must thanks to yvonne and my sister, i can have such a feast! ^^

Friday, 11 Jan
stay at home the whole day playing either PSP or computer..

Saturday, 12 Jan
went to TBSC for NDP audition and saw UNCLE MIKE! the audition dance step is quite ok but i can predict that it will be very tiring.. this year NDP, SSA is putting up an item and we need 400 YWDs and 200 YMDs. asked derrick and yh to go but no news from them.. but no fear, they will come for sunday audition!! yay!! ^^

Sunday, 13 Jan
went to ICA for morning gongyo.. GD is not around and so V-GD take over awhile lor.. encouragement by Mr Oh i almost forget everything but one thing i remember is Mr Oh is very enthu, even enthu den me as in for the home-visit every week part making me feeling ashame of myself. can't imagine Mr Oh is in his 50s still go home-visit every week and wad abt me? 18 years old dun1 go home-visit students.. how to be HMRP?! -_-ll

set already must go home-visit and call my students le! saw afew xi ke like kaiyang and afew more.. went to eat breakfast at mac and i got treat from my sis!! yay! everytime want her to pay is my responsibility as a brother. =P went to bugis with zijing and sis, sis went off and left zijing and me and so, i went to SPADE bought a jacket and a tee-shirt and it cost me $88 and of cos get scolding from my mother. went home and sleep and after that went to chingay training.

was late for chingay training already, saw min ling at bus 62 and very qiao i saw her there. had a quite wonderful experience chatting to her and the conversation was very funny.. ok shldn't eleborate.(: reached PA and as usual, wear the crabs leg and start training. i dunno whether is sansho-shima attacking or wad. when we are having a music run, the sky is dark and it rains. nvm leh raining, the worst thing is there is even lighting, wad if the lighting hit anyone, who will be responsible? the choreographers? the trainers? or the participate himself/herself?

everyone started to chant and although the rain didn't stop but nobody was injured either.(: went to eat and eat the order food and rice. shared money with vyon, yong kang, sheng long, benji and qing de. jaymie jiejie is there with her friend and she was damn pissed off by that drink uncle. dun wan to talk about it anymore and best thing is not to think about it.(:

Monday, 14 Jan
sikang school reopen le. nobody can accompany me go kaikan and chant le.): but nvm.. i'm very independent! ^^ went to TBSC with sikang and chant. went to eat at pasir panjang food centre and after that sikang went to TBSC for choreographers meeting and i went to SYC for the planning of the FD-coaching thingy. saw sheng long there and must thanks to him as he give alot of suggestion. everything went smoothly and i saw judy and went home together with kaiyang, qi jun, yue ying, sikang and alvin.

Tuesday, 15 Jan
went to vivo The White Dog Cafe and look for zijing and my sister. went to TBSC and chant and saw sheng long again (why keep seeing him 2 times in a week? or even 3? -_-ll) sikang came and we chanted till 7pm. eat dinner and treated sikang to eat donut. bought 4 donuts at the price of 3 and i ate 3 donuts at one shot. stupid sikang, next time dun treat u eat good food already!! *HOT*

went up to rainbow hall and chanted with the choreographers and trainers as they are having trainers' training. i went to SYC for YWD meeting. it sounds stupid but everyone is asking me why am i at SYC when i'm YMD. of cos i didn't go for the meeting!! i went to 4th floor, meeting room and chant!! chanted quite alot and time passes very fast, called my students after chanting and asking them whether can home-visit them anot, most of them say not free and 1 of them say dun1 la. -_-ll cannot blame them, i'm oso like this in the past. HAIS..

saw stella, joni and elleen after the meeting and went home tgt with mei lun, sikang, yue ying, my sister and hui min.

Wednesday, 16 Jan
went to chingay full-dress rehearsal. was quite successful and was the bubble is very nice! dun wanna talk about it anymore as i'm very tired. =P one more thing before i go, MY COSTUME IS VERY STUFFY! -_-ll

post more if i have time.. Sayonara~ ^^

(:

tml is chingay daimokukai and also the day where we perform.. and i hope to get the shirt by tml from her.. if not.. hais..

Saturday
stayed at home almost the whole morning and brought my desktop and repair as i think got virus already cos the com suddenly become very slow and also got alot of pop-up coming out showing sexy girls but i'm too immune to such things already..

went to SYC after that for the chingay daimokukai performance rehearsal and waited for brainer till 4plus den he came as he went back to school for something. while waiting for brainer, chatted with DYNAMO and also with min kit, jun hao, qi jun, colin and xiulian and time passes very fast..

brainer came and started to train.. train, train, train and crap, crap, crap and finally it's time for B-R-E-A-K!! brainer told us about how his group respond when their leader called for them and this is how it goes..
Respond number 1 : S-L-I-E-N-C-E-E-E-E!! I KILL YOU!!
Respond number 2 : STOP TOUCHING ME!! I KILL YOU!!
Respond kitchen : The kitchen is over THERE.. Want to know more? call this number (with action)
Respond pipes : Check out my magic pipes.. (with action)
crap isn't it? how i wish i video down and post it here but too bad.. i didn't video-ed it down.. HAHAHA =P went to TPY zone for the daimokukai and after that went to eat and home sweet home..(:

Sunday
went to morning gongyo.. went up to stage and chant cos as usual, all the seats were been taken off and nowdays i'm fond of kneeling down on stage and chant as i feel that gohonzon is bigger like this.. !!~LOL~!! GD shared with us that there a WD has passed away on sensei's birthday and it's on her way to nationwide youth leaders meeting.

GD even added to his last sentence, "let's welcome her back to our kosen-rufu this big family. although she go quickly, but she will come back quickly.." cant really believe GD said those words but wad he said is also true.. that WD will join us very quicky in the mission of kosen-rufu!!(:

went down to bugis and amk after having breakfast. finally found wad i wan and i bought it already.. there's still one more thingy which i want haven come yet but i'll definately get it tml..(: went to chingay training.. quite fun i admit but the props is really very ... making me very hot and also very itchy and my shirt and hand is full of paint! -.-ll fun time really passes very fast and went home after eating dinner..(:

time to go and Sayonara~ ^^

o well.. forget this a lot of times already! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JUDY! ^^

times up and i gotta go now~ Sayonara~ ^^

"when you love someone, you love he/she for who he/she is and not who you want him/her to be."

Wednesday
went to ica and chant before going to PA for chingay training. chanted 2hours and morning gongyo chanted 1hour so total 3hours a day. yay! ^^ finally reached my target of chanting 3hours per day already!(: went to eat later on and stupid sk wanna eat KFC but i dun wan and he give me stupid attitude. bought pancake with peanut and ice-cream, hao chi hao chi.(:

saw guang ming on the way to PA and he is going to eat. this trainer of mine ah.. LOL!! reached PA at 6.20pm, thought i'm the first participant to reach there but yi shan hai you bi yi shan zhao. there is already one coral participant but den first to reach there oso got no prize to take so who cares la. Lol.(: training was quite fun and 5 of our crab-ians is not there cos of the stage performance and most of us just polish our dance steps lor.

finally formation time le, sk looks very stress as mei lun didnt go for training and he is the only YMD there so everything must done by him as YMD must take the lead and be a good example ma. although he's stress but he's also enjoying the process of formation and seeing us been able to finish the dance steps, i think that is wad all trainers and choreographers wants to see..(: after training waited for sk and went tpy LOR 5 and eat the wanton mee. quite nice i admit. home sweet home after that. ^^

Thursday
stayed at home most of the time and didn't go down and find uncle when sk and i agreed to go down and find him.. went to huimin's house for RHQ 5 dmk and after that have study and i am very happy to announce one thing. I DUN NEED TO BECOME DISTRIC LEADER AT THE AGE OF 18!! yay! ^^ although starting hear already feel very happy but think about it, it's actually quite sad as i think that my mission as a leader is not there yet and i'm not responsible enough to be district leader.): it's ok, i can oso reflect on how to change my this character and make min wei believe me that i can be a good district leader.(:

went to eat at S11 which is located near my house and eat till 12.57am as my sister went there till very late.. -.-ll

time to go and sleep already.. Sayonara~ ^^

school reopen le.. wad am i still doing at home playing my computer and blog? -.-ll
the answer is very easy, i don't wanna go to school! :D

Monday
went to KBox with sk, cat, xl jiejie and paul korkor. reached there at about 3plus and it's very late as they started at 2pm. reached there le den keep dian ge non-stop till the list is full of MY SONG. Lol. but den didn't sing all of them as sk went to make other songs up the list. hehe.. =P sing till 6plus and went to orchard mrt station take train to tampines and eat. went to LJS and eat and i'm really very fortunate to have paul korkor to treat me somemore the meal is not cheap. eat alrdy and went to ICA for the GM.

was late and miss evening gongyo and when we reached there, it's presentation of awards to chapter with conferement and the chapter with the highest conferement is pasir ris chapter with 12 conferement!! CONGRATS! with this kind of attitude for kosen-rufu, more and more people will lead to happiness!(: i oso cannot waste time spending sooo much time on computer alrdy, the world outside is waiting us to bring them happiness. HEART campaign HERE I COME! ^^ very stress oso after hearing GD saying this, "starting from next year, YMDs must be everywhere is Singapore." waaa.. i feel like becoming a YWD now.. !!~LOL~!! go home after that and do midnight gongyo.(:

Tuesday
went to TSC and perform for the new year gongyo and it's quite fun though.. eugena, freddie, vanessa, vincci, brian were performing the PD anniversary dance and asked jian zhong to join in later.. it's really very nice.(: went to ICA and after which meet ep, sl at the coffee shop there and eat. went back to ICA and think of the dance steps for the spirit booster for chingay but nothing was been think out. Lol. went to TSC after that and chant and something happened. dun wanna say it anymore.

went to sk's hse and his mom again is very nice by treating me to eat sushi, fried rice, chicken leg and ect.. too bad ep you dun have this good fortune to eat such good food cooked by sk's mom.. Lol.

Sayonara~ ^^